The last two months have been a wonderful experience. I’ve been writing and painting a lot and some things have materialized that I didn’t know I had in me. I’m currently in the process of illustrating a children’s book for adults that I wrote. I’ve sold a few paintings and I was just hired at an interior design firm based on my home remodel project. I was helping a woman tidy her basement for she and her hubby had just moved into a new home and there were still lots of boxes to go through. She said she was impressed with my ability to handle a project of that scope and she loved the finished project. Good things do come to those who wait! If you’re reading this and I haven’t heard from you in a while, shoot me a line so we can catch up, firstname.lastname@example.org. Happy Spring, Everyone and below is one of the writings that I’ve done since the start of the new year. <3
CONVERSATIONS WITH LOVE
M: Where have you been?
M: Well if you’ve been here, where have I been?
L: Not here.
M: Well if I’ve not been here then where have I been?
L: In the past or in the future but certainly not here. I know because I’ve been trying to reach you.
M: You’ve been trying to reach me, when?
L: All the time...24/7
M: How would I have known that you were trying to reach me? I mean I feel like I’m present all day and I’m looking for you constantly.
L: You don’t need to look for me I’m already with you.
M: How can you be with me and I not know you’re there?
L: Because you’re always thinking about what you’ve done and what you need to do.
M: Aren’t I supposed to do that?
L: Well yes, but only for a moment and then the in between times you can stop thinking and just be. Just remember me, be me, and see me in all things.
M: But I don’t know how to do that.
L: Stop thinking about what has been or needs to be done. Contemplate what it would be like to be me. When you’re in your car how would I, Love, be as the driver in the car? When you’re at work contemplate how I, Love, would be towards the people in the office and how would I address the work needing to be done? When you’re looking at yourself in the mirror or speaking to yourself in your mind, contemplate how I, Love, would address both of those things. It really boils down to how and who you want to be. Without me I’m guessing you’re feeling your life is quite empty?
M: Yes, so empty.
L: Well, conduct an experiment. Put on my qualities like a superhero cape and see how it goes.
M: I don’t know what to say...
L: Perfect and let’s check in regularly to see how things are growing. And don’t forget, you can have me all the time you just have to remember me for I am always with you.
A sense of meaning and purpose is possibly what we are all striving for. The pandemic has had me reach into my creative side and it has allowed me to remember how much I love to paint. This was a commissioned piece that I struggled over for weeks but I finally finished it and the client was very happy. I’m writing this blog with the hope to inspire someone to also find the thing that makes them happy. Happy New Year, Everyone!!
Olivia is one of my most favorite clients. She really feels the impact of pulling everything out, cleaning, and putting everything back. She is a lovely mother and has never ending energy that I wish I had. When we tidy together she gets so excited she practically flies off the ground. We did her kitchen yesterday and we moved dishes directly above the dishwasher so that things would be easy to put away and I also gave her a drink station in one of her cabinets. Her kids now can access snacks effortlessly and the 2 y/o can pull out his drink cups and snack bowls all on his own. I love this work!! <3
We went to the Denver Botanic Gardens yesterday and it was COLD! The flowers and plants are saying their goodbyes and I caught the loving message from this dahlia that love is all around us and we can choose to be loving in return. Fall has alway been a sad time of year for me but this year I’ve chosen to embrace it by engaging in its message that everything must change and go. Nothing is permanent and we must cherish what we have when we have it. I hope you are able to cherish these moments amidst the seeming disharmony, but I think there is a higher love bidding for our attention, even when we are challenged.
In the last month I’ve been getting out 3-5 times per week to get exercise. I’ve discovered so many places in Colorado that are beautiful and that support a clear head. This is Philip S. Miller Park in Castle Rock. It’s 200 steps to get to the top and it will make your heart feel like it’s going to beat out of your chest! I hope you all are finding ways to keep your self healthy mentally and physically during this crazy time. <3
Gardening was one of the things that helped me get through the COVID quarantine. Unfortunately I didn’t know how much shade these little guys needed and the sun burned them up over the course of a few weeks. I’m hoping they’ll come back next season and our new fence will give them the shade they need. :)
A test of the heart, that’s what we’re enduring. From pain we open up new space and make room for love and understanding to pour in and mold us. It’s ok to disagree and it’s ok to take a side, just as long as no one that is trying to help the greater good of mankind is left out of the equation and that encompasses all skin colors, sexual preferences, and job professions. Remember, all generalizations are false and typically if we are quick to point the finger then we probably don’t know everything that we should. <3
On April 7th Marie Kondo launched her new book “Joy at Work”. Now that the majority of us are working from home, you may be feeling a bit anxious and uneasy.
In addition to a variety of other issues, this could also be because you have too many things in your living space that are bidding for your attention. One way to alleviate this is to create a space you desire to be in and you do this by tidying up.
If the thought of organizing your living space feels too overwhelming, simply start with the clothing category and see if anything shifts inside of you.
If it does, and you feel better, I urge you to keep tidying until you’ve completed your tidying festival. Then, put on your seat belt, and watch the course of your life take off like a rocket into places unknown.
This photo is brought to you by my sweet mom on her walk today in Moon Valley, AZ.
It reminds me that we truly must yearn and fight for our freedom to be who we are and to love who and what we want to love. There are no borders or boundaries to loving yourself and we must be pioneers and be willing to take on the most difficult journey by confronting and transcending all of our weaknesses and exposing all of the shadows. By taking each corner and painting a heart on each rock that we stub our toes on and by filling each pot hole with our loving trust and faith, we will make it to the top arriving at the perfect time to meet our highest self.
Today was a really difficult day for me. I couldn’t get out of bed until after 3 PM. I listened to a friend remind me that it was me that asked to be made strong and for all of my heartaches to be healed. By making that request I have to expect there to be resistance and I can’t pick and choose how I want things to go. Just like a boxer, when he enters the ring, can’t ask his opponent to follow a set of pre-planned steps in the hopes of avoiding pain and bloodshed. No, he has to be spontaneous and quick on his feet and dodge each punch as it comes. Not knowing what technique his opponent will use to try to defeat him, but trusting he is prepared to fight, and that his desire to win is stronger.
I’ve been reflecting on this recent experience and never to my knowledge has the world been on the same page. We are staying home to keep others safe and in the meanwhile we are trying to find a new sense of normal. I have to trust there is a higher purpose for all of it.
Our minds are so conditioned to going to work, visiting with friends, taking the kids to school, getting gas, going to Target to buy that thing we need, always going outside to find its nourishment. Now we are being coaxed to go inside and listen to a voice that maybe has never been listened to before.
I must admit it has been uncomfortable to not be able to visit with family like I once did, and go to the grocery store on a daily basis, and see my clients and earn an income, but I also must admit that in these last few weeks my inner voice and desire for inner contentment is taking over. Looking inside for answers when normally I would look outward has me feeling more love and gratitude for all things inner and outer. It seems we are being divinely set up to love ourselves and others in a way never before experienced.
The outside world has proven to be noisy and at times unreliable where my inside world is showing me that it holds the key to a level of consciousness that isn’t available anywhere else. A level of consciousness that is above the outside world. It’s all I have, what’s inside of me, and I want it to be strong and content in knowing all is perfect no matter what is going on outside of me.
I liken it to a wandering soul that has been yearning to find the very thing that makes it yearn in the first place. Like a man who has been wandering in the desert for days in search of water and when he happens upon a well, he is able to rest and contemplate his journey and ultimately realizes the well has been there all along, loving him, awaiting his arrival.
Whatever happens as a result of this “stay at home order”, if it lasts for months, I’m taking this opportunity to dig deeper and to listen to the voice that is calling me to permanently be inside. 💛